It’s been kind of a rough week on the home front for a few reasons.
One, I’m pretty hard on myself when I don’t feel like I’ve been the best mom I can be.
Two, sometimes so are others. Hard on you, that is. Certain that – if put in your shoes they could live your life and do the job better.
Three, it’s been an insanely busy week. One where I’ve had much more on my plate than usual. And usual is already ridiculous by most people’s standards. On top of it, I haven’t felt well. I do believe my nose is bleeding at the moment from blowing it so much, darn this cold/sinus infection/whatever it is. So I’m sure I’m looking good to boot.
I sincerely don’t mean in any way to complain.
Everyone around me is sick. Busy and hard on themselves I think at times, knowing if they had more time to do it all, they could do any of it better. Some, I know are far more sick and challenged than I am at the moment so I try to rise everyday thanking the good Lord for whatever level of health I do have.
Just stating the facts.
But, everything this week: event-wise, situation-wise, health-wise and otherwise, has come back to the whole issue of parenting for me and what I want for myself and my (and my ex’s) daughter.
Big picture stuff.
And big picture can be tough when you and your spouse or ex or whoever else might be in the picture .. can’t seem to ever get on the same page when it comes to even the little things.
(It sure is interesting, though trying to get it all worked out. Thoughts to be shared perhaps, later. For now, the Cowboy and I are off to solve the world’s problems over beer and a fish fry. Isn’t that where all good problems are solved?)
I’m sure it will all work out, sometime we just gotta figure out what we’re working out, exactly!